I have bought a new home on SL. It is the Onsu house called “Magnolia.” I’m really excited to take on this project and make it my own. I’ve also seen a lot of really amazing decorators on YouTube for some great tips! However, with this new house and new land, with the same friends, I feel like I need to purge things from my SL life and honestly a lot of it is just old baggage that i’ve carried along for far too long.
I’ve also been confronted by an ex of mine. We talked and things went well at first and I thought wow maybe we could be friends. We were trying to understand each other, but an ex is an ex for a reason. We didn’t work the first time and the second time we didn’t work either.
Most of the people who read my blog know that I enjoy exploring and meeting new people and I date around, nothing really ever serious. I made a notecard a while back, with the new profile picture. I didn’t put on there. ‘nothing serious,’ because I don’t know. I personally haven’t made it far with the few people i’ve met on there to consider anything serious. We talk for a few days and they either ghost or I am just not emotionally available enough for them and life goes on.
We talked about the possibility of getting back together. I told him (which if he reads this, here is your re-appearance on my blog) that I just couldn’t date him again. I wasn’t ready for something serious and I did have feelings for him, but they weren’t strong enough to have a relationship again. He still was holding a grudge against me from when I broke up with him and began dating someone in my own state right after. It was wrong of me and I apologized. The second time he never initiated contact and left/ghosted me. We both did each other wrong, and frankly I’m not over the second time and he’s not over the first.
His friend saw my notecard at AL and instead of talking to me about it accused me of lying to him. This has been bothering me for the past couple of days. I didn’t mean to come off that I was lying to him, because I said I’m looking for a potential partner on the notecard, because technically that is the goal. I’m open to someone becoming that eventually. I just want to go slow, but if I had gone back to him. We’d be right where we were and not going slow. I understood his point, but the fact he came at me telling me I’m lying and sounding upset instead of asking ‘hey what is this…’ is what has really upset me.
I guess I’m glad in a way that this closed our last chapter, but I’m heartbroken it was closed in this way. Now It’s time to move on and close a couple of friendships and chapters in my life an open it up to something different. I’ll never regret dating him, but I don’t want to do it over and have it repeat again. 3rd time is not my charm.
In happier news. I’m looking forward to celebrating my birthday this weekend and hopefully I’ll get a few good birthday shots with my friends!
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